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Romance
04:07
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Have you ever wanted to die all alone
In a blanket while the gentle tones of wings like drums
Sound like angry foghorns
In the calm that smells like vomit in the sink
He's an angry little kid with a lot on his chest
He's a human-sized leak that i just can't fix
He's me and you trying to live alongside each (other)
Other like a torn appendage
Phantom pains like running water, say it
Softy in my ear a second time
You are gonna be the death of me
Laughing in your sleep, it frankly scares me
Me, me, me
Fading into
Pillows, sleep, blankets, sheets
It's
Romance, like
Roman-tic poetry in a food processor we're
Sleeping while my brain sputters like a VCR, it's
Romance, it's romance
All these doppelganger people in the pictures
Sober lives in a heaven that we'll never know
...
Punctuating screaming silence with sentences like
Fuck you, pay me
You are nobody to anybody
Already broken, total disappointment
Are you gonna be here when i break down
Are you gonna wish me well, all black, when i'm face down
When i'm gone, bury me in blankets
(it's) Romance
Like romantic poetry in a food processor
We're sleeping while my brain sputters like a VCR
It's romance
It's PBR and this cocaine
It's all these doppelganger people in the pictures
Sober lives in a heaven that we'll never know
...
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2. |
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An amalgamate of featureless bodies rolls into town
In a suitcase, on a bus
Shockwaves whistling and dancing
In the space between my legs
I find it hard to tell
Just where I end and you take over
Even at your slightest cold touch
My wings are clipped
It don't bother me much
Somehow you found me
I expected nothing less from a cruel and ironic god
I don't really want to stay and talk to you now
But i do
Anywhere we have to wait in line
I burn like wildfire
Anytime your hand glances my thigh
I sweat
I'm scared of being part of something
Anything at all
You are someone that i never want to see again
I honestly accept that but i cannot just forget the things we shared
We hid behind a locked door
And you hid behind your hair
You were a parasite and i was too
We would feed off of each other
We would snarl, drool, and choke on the bones
You'd give into my fantasies and make me sicker
One big group delusion
Paranoid and choking all the way home
I couldn't
I really shouldn't
We're still hacking up the pieces in the garbage can
I know how simple it seems
I hate how easy it can be
To give into your habits
To fall into patterns
I will never be whole again
Never join the party, join the legion
Getting married just seems so far-fetched
I could stay alone, and i'll be relatively happy here alone
And live my life, least for a while
I'm unfixable
It comes as no surprise that
The half of me that i don't like is eating me alive
I wake up alone
I wake up alone
...
I walk around defeated with no wallet and I'm thirsty
And it's a suffocating, awful time of night
I lay down on a park bench
When I touch my face, I poke right in the eyes
What's next for me
Just feel like this for my whole life?
No matter how I train
No matter who I fight
A chain with a broken link
Won't hold you all that tight
(I wish i was stronger!! I wish I was dead!!!)
Do I wish I was stronger, do I wish I was dead?
I am praying, but so vaguely that I make things worse instead
My wings are clipped and I get back in bed
Someday, someday soon, I'll walk out of here instead
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Keep you company
Screaming out of town, westward bound
Scratches on our arms
Shadows at our backs
Along for the ride
Never really saying much or doing much
Salty humid air permeates the night
Oh, I am waiting for my chance to speak up
I'll keep your spirit alive
Keep an injured bird inside
Never stop to eat
Never need to leave this seat or shake the ants from my feet
Laughing at nothing
Chest becoming tight
Oh, holy night
Bright and shining
Feel impossibly high
Dream of shepherd's pie
Gold reflectors, bad signs
AM radio preachers warn us of the end times
Sky over 376 turns black
I'm leaving you tonight and I'm never coming back
You make me feel like my death is an imaginary omen
You make me wanna sing out loud for no one at all
I smile, and the flies outside the windows start to cheer
In their 37th hour, they will die soon, heaven nears
The shepherd's pie in heaven must be chewy and full of rotting beef
Full of rotting beef
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4. |
Pharsalia
05:23
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Anyone who knows me knows I'm scared of going to the doctor
I hear the televisions scream at me and I run and hide
I drew you this at school today
You could hang it on the fridge - like a warning, a reminder
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah ah.
Anyone who knows me knows how stupid often I get sick
And how insufferable I am when I don't get my way
It smells like shit wherever I go
And my plants are dying, torching up in afternoon sunlight
I swear to god that I am not depressed
Everything's okay
Are you getting disappointed in me
Get used to dissapointment. Join the dissapointment club. Give up the ghost.
Would you like to be me
Just for a day
Come try me out for twenty minutes
Then walk away
Give it up, so
Call me medusa cause you're stoned
Call your dealer have him drop off some coke
Every inch of me that enables you does grow
I find something worse than death
I gracefully give up the ghost
Ah ah, ah ah...
Any time now.
Any time.
Where's my redemption arc
Heel turn, my change of heart
Some things may never come
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5. |
Shichikoku-yama
07:07
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I walk the whole way
With a beatless heart
Heartless beatings, cause de moi
Freezing cold
High
Roaming costs
Livin ain't free
I was sleeping for decades
Making love to the blanket
A pikachu blanket
Lack of an echo
Lack of noise
Cause no one's lived here
For a pretty long time
We get through the days
Barely, just barely
We struggle to say something
And continue to drink
We're saying the same things
In the same exact way
We're doing the same things
In the exact same place
...
When the clock strikes
We unplug it
Warped emotion
Draw the blinds
Don't tell me where the days go
I don't want to know
Even with my eyes closed
It seems too bright, you know?
Is it even worth fighting
Should we let the blackouts rage?
How many weeks can go by
Before the bender starts to break?
When the clock strikes
We unplug it
Warped emotion
Draw the blinds
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You'll never see me walk away
Never feel the sting as the sweat trails my back
Coming around to feeling better
Tortoise and hare part ways
It's not about the words, if i could say it
Never need to spray it, if i never wake up
Would you be all right without me here?
Never mind, don't say it
Doesn't matter, don't care
Long as i'm near you, fine
Long as i'm near you, fine
Even something as
Simple as that, can push me
Further in, can leave me
Satisfied
Sleep on the floor for my whole life
Picture perfect on a tv scree-een
Black and white
We hold hands and we jump
Hope we stay the same forever
Get kinda scared when things change
Trying on skirts in my head
Piece of a wedding dress
It's not about the color or the lace
I don't notice small stuff much
Our love is pure like fields in rain
Waiting for the storm to wash us away
But in this single moment i get comfy
And listen to the drops fall on my skin
I sing a little song to pass the time
If i sing it right it never ends
Even just a brush of skin
Or your voice through a brick wall
All was worth it up til this right now
Even just a brush
Of skin or your voice through a brick wall
All was worth it up til this moment
And if we fall, we fall together
If we're going down, it's on our terms
We hold hands and we jump
We lock eyes and we hit the earth
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7. |
Nature Vs Nurture
04:51
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You rode away on a Saturday
You are the last one of your kind
Brooklyn to Los Angeles I came
Looking for you - a mother to my four sons
And hasn't been the same around here since you left
When is it ever the same
There's not a time in your life when you get numb to divorce
But there's a time for everything
I'm gonna need to replace it
I'm gonna need to replace it, I'm
Gonna need a replacement
May I only, be
A little bit crazy
May I only, be
A little bit
Crazy, that's all I ask for
I saw your post on MySpace
Yeah, I know I'm just a little late
It's hard for me to adjust to modern times
A dozen lives spent on the frontier
I think I know how to take it from here
When I don the mask I live a double life
I get this overflowing urge and make my own buckets of blood
And bring em to the set
By the time we finish this take this whole place will be soaking wet
I get so involved in this one role that it's becoming more than just a job
Becoming more than just a game
May I only, go
A little bit psycho, that was my prayer
I feel kinda like, I'm
Becoming who I played in Tourist Trap, in 1979
Each time, I'm surprised how capable all of us are, at taking a human life
Maybe I'm the outlier in that scenario
Each time I'm surprised I have psychic powers
How sure can you really know?
In the house of Davy Jones
You can't kill me, at
The end of this movie
I can't be stopped
My spirit lives on
In the Hollywood halls
On faces I can't wait to lay plaster on
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8. |
Ozymandias Striptease
04:00
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Making sense
Am I making sense
It's the sword
It's the sword that runs along your back
The one that rips the pen in half
Are you still
Are you still lying vacant like a sponge along the floor
Filtering voices through your door
Personal gain
Self-(restraint/ashamed)
I'm gonna need an savior
I'm gonna need a priest
I'm gonna need a doctor
I'm about to rip at the seam
I'm a sucker
I'm a glutton
I get (aggravated/agitated) easily.
Get to the point
Get to the point
Get to the point
Get to the point
Get to the point
Get to the point
Get to the point
Get to the point
Get to the point
I can be my own savior
I can be my own priest
I don't need no one to watch over me
It's hard to go on
It's hard to go on, it's hard to go on
(unintelligible)
I'm hurting those around me
I need help
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9. |
1 Corinthians 13
10:18
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When you walk on down the street
Do you stare at every person you see
Do you wish you were any of them
You already how this story ends
Not with a miracle, but a fade-out
If you lived all by yourself
In a quiet clean apartment
Would you sit wishing anyone at all
Would knock on your door and just lay down and talk
If i had to guess, I don't think so
Cause living alone is really peaceful
Life is a bible that's always switching translations
And up to my interpretation
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Sleeping in the yard
Loving from afar
We are
Across the room in separate beds
Alone together, not quite friends
But I lay awake and whisper this out loud
Do you hear what they're saying about those temporary problems
Do you mean what they mean when they talk permanent solutions
Are you just like me
Darling you'd better be
I'm nothing without you
Nothing, nothing at all
Sleeping in the yard
Loving from afar
Corinthian love is a murder-suicide
I've been patient with you, but I can only be so kind
Corinthian love is a murder-suicide
I've been patient with you, but I can only be so kind
if i had to guess, you're happy now
There with your friends and your family
How do the pills taste? They taste fine,
But I wish you wouldn't ask me things like that.
How is your mother, does she call?
For all I know, she's dead in the ground.
I don't want to say it out loud
I feel trapped, I feel like there's no way out
Corinthian love is a murder-suicide
I've been patient with you, but I can only be so kind
I did it all for love
I did it with the hope that you'd forgive me
Tears roll down my face for the thousandth, final time
Sleeping in the yard
Loving from afar
Waiting for you to fall apart
...
When you die all by yourself
And you drown in the bathtub
And I'm not there to hold your hand
Think not where you're going, think not where you've been
..
Call it what you want, but you are hanging by a thread
If I'm wrong then may you find the strength to hold your breath
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10. |
Love
06:26
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we hold hands and we jump Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Surprising no one, the artist behind this music is a trans woman now. This project may be dead and gone, but she continues to write music with a new band called "Sherry CD-ROM".
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